Mailsonsunday

insecurity.

2012-02-01T11:29:00.002+08:00

The truth is, I have a bad habit of comparing myself to others. There's always someone with a better smile, nicer clothes, a skinnier waist, brighter eyes, and amazing hair. I put myself down all the time. I can never be happy with the way I look at all. I'm self-conscious and that's probably the number one thing I want to change about me.

Dinosaur.

2012-01-31T16:19:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i wish all the silly thoughts can stay away from me.

2012-01-16T16:27:00.001+08:00

Sentences.

2012-01-16T10:49:00.000+08:00

1. I have countless of phobia and most of them consist of feelings.
2. I have too many worries
3. I constantly feeling insecure about almost everything.
4. This is who i am.

want.

2012-01-16T10:45:00.000+08:00

15th.

2012-01-10T15:59:00.000+08:00

It's our 15th monthsary together, we glad we went thru all the obstacles and come this far. Its all worth it. We may have fights and all but all that will not break our relationship. I love you dinosaur! <3

Wants.

2011-12-30T10:20:00.000+08:00

This is sex! & i want them!

30/12/11

2011-12-30T10:06:00.000+08:00

So the year is coming to an end. Bad year indeed. I'm feeling unhappy most of the time...
I hope 2011 ended good for everyone. & i hope mine too.
Happy New Year yaw! will think of my resolution soon! :D

Power to the house!

2011-12-19T12:32:00.002+08:00

flaming lambo, martell and vodka cranberry. drunktards. i really enjoyed myself :D Happy Birthday baby boy :D

Wisdom.

2011-12-18T13:39:00.000+08:00

Recently its been a really serious emotion ride and im glad that its all okay now. Just finished reading tammy's blog post and it really open me up! check her post here :D

till then.

3.27am

2011-12-16T03:28:00.001+08:00

It's 3.27am in the morning now. My only wish is that the devil inside me can stay away from me :/

December.

2011-12-15T19:45:00.000+08:00

December haven't been good so far. I just hope that this unhappiness can quickly fade away from me. I don't want to wake up feeling unhappy. Its tiring. I remember the last word i heard from my mom is to stay happy and strong. But i haven't been doing it at all. I'm sorry mom. But I always seems to have more problem to face than happy things.

2011-12-15T12:09:00.002+08:00

i do miss the late night calls, leaving me messages and i will wake up smiling at it. but it never happen for awhile. so when will it be happening?

2011-12-15T10:39:00.000+08:00

i filled this whole post with many emotion. & then i decided to delete everything and keep them at the back of my mind.

Past.

2011-12-14T14:49:00.000+08:00

Even tho how much i miss the past, they will never be back again anymore, however they will remain as memories, good or bad they will just be a history. Our past shape us to who we are now, never forget whoever who hurt you, makes you happy and helped you along the way even if you guys are not friends now that doesnt mean it didnt exist in the past. Never forget what they did to you, filter all the good things and delete all the bad memories away.

Even tho how badly i want my past to be back, it will never happen unless someone invented a time machine. I wish i could go back where my mom is still alive. I just felt that i never spent quality time with her enough in the past. She is the one who always keep me strong when i always encounter problem in school. Even tho life was so tough back then having force to be independent when i was just a pri 1 kid. I see other kids who are able to enjoy their school holidays with their fellow neighbours and i have to wake up early to help my mom to wash plates, mop the floor prepare the ingredient do delivery and all. Even tho its a little too early to be independent but im grateful to be able to experience it when im just a kid. It allows me to appreciate life and not misuse it.

Thank you mom, and im always missing you.

Even tho my real dad is still alive, i still feel like a orphan. He never wanted me anyway. if he truly want me to be his daughter even how much i push him away or dont want to see him, he will do something to get me back. But he didnt. so all i can think of is to assume that he doesnt want me anymore.

The reason of this post is because i heard stories from other people. and i would like to share mine too.

note to self.

2011-12-14T14:37:00.001+08:00

Source : tumblr.com

13/12/11

2011-12-13T21:56:00.001+08:00

Beautiful date. I wonder what is the significant meaning behind this.

2011-12-13T21:54:00.001+08:00

I can't describe how I feel right now. To feel happy or to feel disappointed ? No matter how hard I try it just doubt seems enough it seems like I tried too hard. I'm not being myself enough.

This is what you need to know.

2011-12-13T14:10:00.001+08:00

Dont ask too much, just try to make my day better.

Effort is the most important part in a relationship.

2011-12-12T17:33:00.002+08:00

Effort is the most important part in a relationship.

A relationship without effort is like a car without gas. Useless and disappointing. The relationship won’t grow if both parties don‘t put time into it. Relationships are a two way commitment. Helping each other out little by little. Bit by bit. Don’t just let your significant other do all the work. Your companion will eventually get tired and weary because it’s clear you don’t give a damn shit. It’s too late to realize when they already left. Don’t make yourself regret and question why you didn’t appreciated their effort. Try to put as much effort as you can to maintain your relationship when you guys are still together.

Source: ohfuckyeahitsnam

Circle Scarf

2011-12-12T15:08:00.000+08:00

Would really like to own a circle scarf. if only singapore weather is not killing.

The stars shine so bright.

2011-12-09T14:17:00.000+08:00

It's really a pity that in singapore you can't really see the stars because the streets lights over shine the whole city and because its too bright you can't see the stars from the sky through your naked eye.

I always wants to drive all the way to the middle of the city highway and have a good glance at the beautiful city. Its so beautiful to be miss.

& of course i want to see all these beautiful things with you!<3.
I can't wait for you to be back tmr.

Aladdin

2011-12-09T10:48:00.000+08:00

I went for Aladdin concert last night with the events students. It's awesome i would say very similar to glee. I will load up some photo once i get those photos from my friends. :D

Last work day of the week. Time to have some fun to replace the crappy week.

crappy day

2011-12-08T15:38:00.000+08:00

still feeling crappy as hell.

The Boyfriend/Best friend

2011-12-08T14:47:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, when your girlfriend is feeling down, it is best to know that she can come to you as her best friend for help. When she is feeling sad, she wants to know that you are reliable. She wants to know that you still care. If she doesn’t talk, keep talking to her. Don’t let her forget about it but if she wants to drop it, just be there to support her. She needs to know that you put ‘friend’ first before the “boyfriend”. When she needs you at her lowest, will you be there for her or will you let her go? As the boyfriend, not only are you to be her lover, you are to be her best friend. She needs someone she can trust to talk to. This also is vice-versa for the girls to support their boyfriend.

Source: Tumblr

What makes you beautiful.

2011-12-07T23:32:00.000+08:00

I'm very addicted to what makes you beautiful by one direction. so addictive. its on repeat all the time now.

Okay back to lifestyle.
Work is still the same, went to school for design class today and consult ms lena for advice. I don't know ever since when my self esteem is decreasing and that is very bad. Once it decrease i dont know when and how will i be able to regain back all my confidence. Its like some one putting a heavy stone on you and you can't seems to move the damn thing away. But after talking to ms lena i felt better and i know theres many many things to learn in the long run. I shouldn't put too much focus on just one thing. But its always that one thing that make you think so much. Sigh. lifeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....

Alright. Gonna be end of the year, i wanna meet up with all my close friends as soon as possible. I trying to make up for everything that i lost. My busy life got the best of me and i have to put down the burden and give myself some space to breath. I really need that before i sink into deep deep depression.

Till then.

Feels good to be back.

2011-12-04T17:08:00.001+08:00

Met up with my clique yesterday, I have been MIA for too long, it feels really good to hang out with them again. Joke about almost everything letting my mask down, putting my guards down. I feel so much relaxed. I dont have to put up a wall to protect myself from anybody. Work have been giving me a heavy toll and i thought it will be good to give myself a break. Weeks passed, work load is not as much though, but the amount of stress that i put on myself is enough to suffocate myself. I know i have to take it easy, but there is so many factors to factor in. Things dont seems easy on the surface there is always something beneath it.

Enough of emotional rants.
till then.
I will be back again.
Picking myself up.

I love you!

2011-12-02T16:47:00.002+08:00

If you love her, show her you do.

Nothing is better than showing a girl your love towards her. Sure, a simple “I love you” can make her smile, but if you put in effort and show her you do instead of just saying it, it’d mean so much more to her. Remember every little thing you do for her counts, even if it’s small and simple. Do anything that will give her butterflies in her stomach, make her feel special, and show her she’s only the one you want. Treat her like there’s no tomorrow. By showing her how much you love her, you, basically, are giving her a reason to stay with you. No girl would leave her boyfriend when he has treated her so well and made her happier than anyone else could. Always remember, actions speak louder than words.

2011-11-13T16:59:00.000+08:00

Lovers and best friends

I like relationships where you can be both lovers & best friends. It’s not everyday where you’ll find someone that’s willing to be your best friend and your boyfriend/girlfriend. You’ll playfully hit each other, punch each other, kick each other, tease each other, pinch each other, squeeze each other until they say stop. But in the end, you’ll hug each other like there’s no tomorrow. You can confide secrets to each other as if they’re the only ones you can trust, you’ll help each other out, & even give them advice. But having a relationship as both lovers and best friends are the best kind & the ones that many people long for.

Random Sharing

2011-11-07T22:45:00.000+08:00

Sucks that my long weekend gonna end so soon sigh. But quality time spent with my loved ones. Was having a random marketing sharing with my brother today, we were discussing about the latest impressive commercial and suddenly we link to beer cause we saw the tiger beer commercial.

& then i show him this commercial

Just a random sharing session with my brother.

Have a good day everyone! Happy working day tmr :)

Citibank Family Day

2011-11-06T10:59:00.000+08:00

HALLOWEEN!

2011-11-06T10:53:00.001+08:00

Crazy weeks

2011-10-27T13:59:00.000+08:00

Ever since internship started i had a hell loads of crazy workload in a very short time. Couldn't hardly get a proper sleep too. It was so depressing. Is not that i can't handle the work is just that the given time is a little bit too crazy and we are told to work individually you know 1 brain can't work wonders but a group of brains can do so.
I burnt my weekend doing work and i was so exhausted that i don't even feel like stepping out, so in the i stayed home for the entire weekend. jeez. but thank god, elaine,kelly and enyu came over for steamboat at my house to celebrate my birthday and the surprise that they planned was waikiong popping out to surprise me, cause the entire weekend he just did not mention anything to celebrate my birthday and all. so thats was my pre birthday celebration with my favourite bunch of people.<3 thanks loads guys

The thought of birthday didn't made me happy either. I thought i'm gonna bring more work home on my birthday but surprisingly but workload was okay that day so i manage to meet up with yuen mun and co for dinner at 2D1N soju bang for korean bbq after dinner we decided to go up my house to get camera and camwhore. when we reaching my block, i saw two girls which is emily and tingting!! they are lighting the candles on the cake trying to surprise me. awwww... initially they went up to my house trying to surprise me but i wasn't home and in the end i caught them under my block.

The last surprise of the day is from my beloved bestie! weili actually gang up with waikiong to check whether im home or not.hahahha the last surprise really surprise me i wasn't expecting her at all!!!!

to sum up this nineteen birthday is really awesome. i had 4 cakes and i have a series of surprises! which made me so happy. thanks for all the effort really appreciate it!<3

An apple a day keeps the doctor away.

2011-10-14T11:25:00.001+08:00

Currently in school now, blogging using the blogger app. Very convenient, love it!

There's slight changes to my internship so that explain why I'm still in school. But I'm starting work next week, sigh. Gonna miss school very much tho.

Past few days, I had intestine inflammation, which cause me to have diarrhea and vomit non stop, very terrible, I feel so weak even up till now. :( sigh. I wanna recover soon. Please intestine please strengthen up pls!

Tonight 3rd match against nyp hope we can play well :)

Apple

2011-10-07T23:11:00.000+08:00

Rest in peace Steve Jobs

You are my inspiration, you inspire me so much

Your creation and invention gave our generation a sparks in our lifestyle

Thanks to you, we have all these luxury of having technology on the go

You will be remembered.

Food day!

2011-10-07T23:08:00.000+08:00

Update!

2011-10-05T21:38:00.001+08:00

Many things have been happening once school starts, so here is the 2 major happening that gonna happen to me now,

#1: Internship with Vector Scorecard Asia-Pacific Pte Ltd
5 months internship with them, starting from 10 Oct 2011 to 2nd March 2012
Its gonna be the typical office hours and i will have to get used to that kind of working lifestyle anytime soon. Previously my internship wasn't so tedious because i have flexible working hours and i can work at home too. but this internship will require me to go to office everyday i guess? But its a good company with good opportunities for iall interns to be exposed to. So even tho i'm quite reluctant to go for internship due to some reason ( will not be stated here) but i shall take it as a challenge for myself to grow up. :)

#2: POL-ITE Netball championship
5 days tournament against local poly, not too sure what will the outcome be, but i believe my team and i will strive for it and give our best to every match we are attending too. Do give us your support kay? Come down and watch our match at Republic Poly @ their sports hall. Every monday,wedesday and friday there will be matches over at RP between 10 Oct to 19 Oct 2011. ITE first match will be against SP 8.30pm match at competition hall. Do give us your cheers kay? :D

I'm definitely sure that i won't have time for everyone as i'm only off on weekends, and is seriously seriously my only time to relax so sometimes i might just feel like staying at home and rest. But nevertheless how much workload i have during internship i will sure i have some time for everyone kay? So don't accuse me for being so busy and not having time, im trying to, just gonna give me some time to sort out everything :)

Lookout for my next update soon! :)
toodles.

October.

2011-10-03T00:16:00.000+08:00

It's a painful month for me.....

Memories gonna keep coming back and knock me down.

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It's mom last birthday today, Happy Birthday mom, I hope you are doing great now.

I'm glad you leave this painful world, you had suffered enough your whole entire life

take a chance and have a good rest now.

I always love you.

With loves, your daughter.

Edgy

2011-09-30T00:35:00.000+08:00

So gorgeous.

Love her long slim legs.

Source : tumblr

Thursday Dinner.

2011-09-30T00:25:00.000+08:00

I cooked dinner for my brother, his gf and boyfriend. I made cabbage with vegetarian abalone, Spicy tofu, Stir fry asparagus with pork slice, steamed salmon and a herbal soup, plus a plate of leftover lunch :X . so yeap i glad they all like it. Pretty happy that boyfriend is getting along well with brother and celine! haha we had funny conversation and all, im so glad that it didnt bored him out. I shall cooked more next time and invite boyfriend again! :D

Results.

2011-09-30T00:21:00.001+08:00

I would say i'm pretty satisfied with my results, all the midnight mugging until the next morning and off to examination class without sleep does paid off a little. The only thing that i didn't expected is that those 2 modules that i'm very confident about getting good grades ended up screwing me up, and the 2 new modules definitely surprise me. I didn't expect myself to score a distinction and a A. I'm still glad to get a distinction tho. :) When i was mugging for exam, my hope for a seat in poly starts to fade as time goes, but now i still see myself there and hopefully i could get into my dream course. :)

Boyfriend did well too! Gonna push him more, i want him to do well :D

Lesson in life.

2011-09-29T20:59:00.000+08:00

Source : Tumblr

America Next Top Model Cycle 16

2011-09-28T22:18:00.000+08:00

Brittani and Hannah! they are my favourite in ANTM. They both got into top 3 and brittani won in the end and got featured in Italian Vogue. Awesome, i shall watch cycle 17 soon! :)

Charice @ F1

2011-09-28T22:15:00.000+08:00

Brunos Mars wrote this song for charice, i could say this is the perfect combination, with charice strong vocal and bruno mars great writing skills. Is just way to awesome. :D

a pencil story

2011-09-27T21:21:00.000+08:00

Pencil: I'm sorry
Eraser: For what? You didn't do anything wrong.
Pencil: I'm sorry cos you get hurt bcos of me. Whenever I made a mistake, you're always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller each time.
Eraser: That's true. But I don't really mind. You see, I was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one day, I know I'll be gone and you'll replace me with a new one, I'm actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad. :)

I found this conversation between the pencil and the eraser very inspirational. Parents are like the eraser whereas their children are the pencil. They're always there for their children, cleaning up their mistakes. Sometimes along the way... they get hurt, and become smaller (older, and eventually pass on).

Though their children will eventually find someone new (spouse), but parents are still happy with what they do for their children, and will always hate seeing their precious ones worrying, or sad.

"All my life, I've been the pencil.. And it pains me to see the eraser that is my parents getting smaller and smaller each day.

For I know that one day, all that I'm left with would be eraser shavings and memories of what I used to have..."

F1- Linkin Park

2011-09-27T19:54:00.000+08:00

Working in f1 is fun, because you get to watch concert for free! & i can't express how awesome Linkin Park performance at the padang stage! they simply rock the whole entire place!!

alright will do some proper update soon

F1 2011

2011-09-26T23:04:00.000+08:00

Finally 3 days of F1 is over! kinda miss it tho, not the working part but the entertainment! Alright shall let the picture do the talking.

Awesome bunch of people, okay uh, mainly consist of my classmates, but i made friends too. :D

Bumble bee

2011-09-21T22:54:00.003+08:00

You're my bumble bee, you stung me with your love :)

LYRICS

VERSE 1
No matter where I go
There's always one thing that I'll know
That it's you, this much is true

And no I cannot complain
Cause it's so easy to maintain
The things in my life when I'm with you

PRE CHORUS
And I can't get enough, since you stung me with your love

CHORUS
You're my bumble bee, and I can say right now
We'll fly together, makin' honey with our nectar.
And I can finally see, with my hexagonal eyes
you're fine , be mine, cause you're my bumble bee

VERSE 2
See we started off friends but I could pretend
I knew you were for me
And no I'll never ever find
A prettier bumble bee
Oh I can't deny, I'll always need you by my side
And you know it's right, we even got some matchin' stripes
No I can't deny, that we're just friends is such a lie

PRECHORUS
And I can't get enough, since you stung me with your love

CHORUS

BRIDGE
It is time to realize, that we are more than this, we're more than ordinary friends, I'll say it all again you know it's true, cause you feel the same way too

Sunflower.

2011-09-21T22:51:00.001+08:00

Holiday has been good, and i've been training real hard to make sure i get into polite and make sure i can contribute something into the team. Due to all my busy schedule i actually neglect baby a little, but he is very understanding, he gave me the space i needed, love you loads baby.

So baby and i hit the town today and watched Cars 2! woooohooo is damn awesome but i was a little bit annoyed at mater at a moment because he is so annoying but in the end he actually save lightning mcqueen hehe.

The day before i met up with my classmates to celebrate emily's birthday :D hehehe 19th alr! hohoh, we went to town too, and caught Johnny English Reborn, seriously it's so damn hilarious i couldn't stop laughing at many part! Way to go mr bean! Had dinner at botak jones and head on to EM bar and sailor bar for some drinks, mr jeremy drive the 6 of us home! awesome! :D

Was wearing a Cream waterfall blazer from OM, white basic spag top, jeans from F21 and H&M platform :)

Outfit

2011-09-20T22:04:00.000+08:00

Credit: Eatingzombie.com

Totally love this entire look, especially the waterfall blazer in such a nice shade of maroon and of course the dual tone jeggings! jeez awesome max but it doesn't come in my size :(

Would love to get the oxford platform in beige and oxford flats in brown too!

pfttt... i got so much wants :(

Holiday.

2011-09-20T22:01:00.000+08:00

Busy bee.

FUCK YEAH EXAM IS OVER.

2011-09-10T17:06:00.001+08:00

I'm really really glad that the freaking nightmare exams is over now, seriously i couldn't explain how i actually felt during that 4 days of nightmare, its pretty insane, i cried actually, cause is too much to handle, we left with 1 week to study for 4 freaking module and they are pretty heavy loaded theory. But im glad is over but i wont be doing well anyway so yeap. Shall find a time and load up the photos in my camera and do a more proper update! :)

Can't believe that im gonna miss "All time low" concert! DAMNNNNN! :(

until next time! takecare!

Hiatus!

2011-08-27T22:35:00.001+08:00

A phone love story..... (watch it till the end)

If you stay

By Joseph Vincent

Sorry for the lack of update, currently busy with exams! & im in terrible trouble because i left with 1 week and i havent really started studying yet, people can say i lie or whatever shyt, but im seriously procrastinating every single day. The motivation and determination is just not there.

Alright enjoy this two videos !

Until next time, takecare! :D
XOXO! redmonster

Boomerang!

2011-08-20T23:15:00.000+08:00

Great catch up with chanyuenmun today! A good ranting session to her while eating! hahaha. Lets study hard together alright? i want to go poly with you! :D & actually i have a list of things i wanna get! omgahhh! is time to clear my wardrobe for money alr :( & hopefully get part time job after exam! if not no money to get the things i want!

& lately those oxford shoes is pretty much haunting me. Soon i will get you kay? :D

& alive again!

2011-08-20T00:18:00.000+08:00

Hello promised a update of what i have been doing after im done with presentation! here you go! & yes i have finished all the presentation and had already removed the project burden off my shoulder. Now i just gotta concentrate on exams! another two weeks before the end of module exams! gonna give it a blast! :D

Pasar malam with bestie @redhill had a sinful amount of food there and we talked alot abt dreams!

Istana Arts Event! awesome day! thats why people say that the grass is always greener on another side. indeed is true.

Presentation for Venue management and Principle of marketing

Everything with fries with small boy @ holland! awesome dinner to celebrate our 10 months! :D

My chargrill char siew! yummeh!

baby's lamp burger

mille crepe! LOVE IT~

and my favourite! nutella tart

Untill next time!
xoxo redmonster

Truckloads of workloads.

2011-08-16T23:26:00.000+08:00

What's up guys? what you guys have been to? Sorry for not blogging, but i seriously having truckloads of things to do, just recently done with 2 presentation and there is one last one to go. Cool shyt, so gonna look forward for it even tho i havent finish my part yet.

Last week i sprained my back, it was quite serious and i visited the sinseh twice. Past few days were awful and occasionally i cried because is just to painful for me. Anyway thanks to those who cared! appreciate it much! with hugs!

I have many photos to upload, everything with fries session with baby to celebrate our 10 monthsary, istana art event(sneaks above), venue management presentation and many pretty outfit!

Until next time!

redmonster xoxo

Istana Arts Event

2011-08-08T22:13:00.002+08:00

Yesterday i attended the istana art event, it was quite a eye opening one, i never been to such a beautiful place and what more is in singapore. The kids are damn cute and talented just lacking of a bit of patience. Of course i had fun teaching them how to fold the paper fruits and watching them holding the colour pencil and draw even more creative stuff on walter. :D

I love how green this place and how spacious it is, a total different experience, im like totally in a different country.

view from the villa

walkway outside the villa

Meet the modified version of walter, i named it PIKABIT (pikachu + rabbit)

Something to end of the post!

Seee smile like a happy boy only! got food, the face smile so wide.

Hardcore Project day.

2011-08-06T17:55:00.000+08:00

Greetings from Holland Village. Currently at HV Starbucks, it's super quiet here, and the location is good with a lot of power points. So i can stay here and chill my whole day away doing project. :D

Is good to see those old faces once in a while, their face reminds you of the past. & i miss my past very much, the company of parents and fun people and all. Really miss it. Seeing those aunties brings a smile to my face! I love you aunties! :D You guys are great people! Always made me feel like travelling! :D

Alright back to project again! ^^

Byebye holiday.

2011-08-05T20:54:00.001+08:00

Sad to say, my bangkok trip during sept have to be cancelled, we couldn't get any flights available for us to go during the weekend :( I'm sad too. but is the peak period so i will have to let it go.

I have this sudden urge to visit Europe! Watch this video you will understand why it urge me to go!

Till then :)

Double Madness.

2011-08-03T22:11:00.002+08:00

Project is piling up, deadline is so close, we have so little time but so much amendments to do. After project submission and presentation it will be a good 2 weeks hardcore mugging before exams. #suckstobeastudent.

My health has been a bitch recently, my tailbone injury seems to worsen and i'm quite worried but i am afraid to visit a doctor, i do not want to give up my passion and now is the crucial time and is my last year representing ITE for Polite match. & i wish i could persevere till the end. :/ Thanks baby, your words really made my day better. I'm sorry for being a burden because of my health :(

Till then.

Busy monster.

2011-07-31T20:37:00.000+08:00

I want to relax now.

3 more projects to go.

& i will be done with all this project shyt and mug hard for exam!

&& i will be chilling and saving for my bangkok trip with bestie!

with loves! redmonster xoxo.

Sometimes if we dont stop and look around we might miss out something important

2011-07-25T23:21:00.000+08:00

Last friday, i had a awesome simple dinner with my dearest bestie and we chatted almost everything. We even thought about doing business together and be our own boss. I know its a dream that is hard to achieve without money. but either way im just gonna strive for it!

Weekend were well spent with boyfie! I swear i had a super great quality time spent with him! we had KFC breakfast yay, of course is hard for me to wake up but boyfie keep talk to my ears and wake me up! hahaha. so cute!

& now i will be darn busy with training! so till then again! xoxox

Getaway.

2011-07-20T22:37:00.000+08:00

I know i have always been saying that i want to go bangkok so badly again! The previous time i went there i regretted not buying a lot of things! Seriously i hate our volleyball programme. Almost everyday got volleyball friendly. I just saw my friend going BKK recently for about 4 days i think? "envious" :( . How i wish i can be so damn lucky to pick up a 1000 dollars on the street. fml. luck is always not at my side. its always money that make people unhappy. & im tired of money issue alr.

I wanna go overseas, i hate staying in sg sometimes.

On the side note. I wish that i can everyday dress up and go out! Girls just love dressing up , dont you think so?

This photo just remind me how much i miss my long hair :(

Crayon.

2011-07-20T00:26:00.000+08:00

Training was madness, is so knee killing. Running staircase, things that i never done for a very long time. Jasmine and ophelia used to always torture us by running around school and running staircase. Is so secondary school but i still like it. I'm not discipline enough when comes to physical training on my own. So i will always take this opportunity to push my limit to train hard during school training.

I'm happy for bestie, finally i see some happy post on her blog! :)

Alright let the madness project night begin again.

Sushi Buffet @ Icon Village

2011-07-18T20:32:00.000+08:00

This time we didn't take photos together, we were so hungry and we tuck in straightaway! :) He is always in the picture because im the one taking it1 hahaha.

Word of wisdom.

2011-07-18T20:19:00.000+08:00

This world is cruel.

2011-07-17T19:15:00.000+08:00

I always know that this world is cruel, the people out there is full of motive and they will do whatever it takes to break you down. I'm so willing to step into that world now, i used to love challenging all this kind of people but after so many incident i felt that i'm still not ready for all this challenges.

I wanted to go out and do project today, otw to cityhall im terribly in pain, bad cramps,cold sweat,feel like vomiting and back bone is super painful too. I feel damn weak, lucky weili came on time, she went to buy me pink pills, i quickly popped 2 of it and idle awhile over at the staircase when i am able to move, we took cab home. I took a nap while weili do her project at a side! now im feeling so much better. phew it was really very painful i thought i will be bedridden for the day and i will be unable to do my proj :(

Had a chat with weili just now, sigh theres so many things that we can relate to each other! why are we always facing all these nonsense? :(

Photographs.

2011-07-17T01:22:00.000+08:00

Local street style.

2011-07-16T23:29:00.000+08:00

Today is a well spent weekend with my love, we cuddle today and he fall asleep on my bed and sleep so soundly. We had sushi buffet at icon village, awesome meal to satisfied our craving, i wish i have a bigger stomach to stuff more salmon and wont grow fat. Nevertheless is still a great day spent even though im pretty much not willing to part with him when the night is getting late and he has to go home.

Just a kiss.

2011-07-15T22:11:00.000+08:00

I want a room something like this! :D

So gorgeous

Love her figure.

I love the hair colour, why must asian hair be black?

I miss mom very badly this few days, i kept thinking about it, i ask myself why she left me so quickly, she always wanted to see me get married and have children. This is why people should always hold on to their loved ones cherish them if one day they left, your will start to regret.

Photographs.

2011-07-13T20:54:00.000+08:00

I don't know how long it gonna take me to save up enough money to buy a proper camera. I really love taking pictures. I know i havent been saving money yet. but i will someday. & i have feelings to go out and take loads of pictures!

School on the other hand is crazy, and project is piling up. I'm trying not to be too stressed over everything. & trying to go with the flow, if i cant get to poly then i shall really prepare myself for the very worse, but if i do get up i better not miss this opportunity. To be real frank, i'm actually tired of studying, the long hours the catching up and everything is taking a toll on me. How i wish i was born smarter at least i wouldn't have to go through such a long routine to get what i want in future.

alright. I know my blog is seriously lagging of pictures! now is not holiday! ayeeee. till then

Physical Training.

2011-07-12T23:34:00.001+08:00

Training at simei ITE, jeez is really far! Omgah! Been so long since i last went thru a really tough physical training and i kind miss it alot. Secondary school is where my determination is really strong, every training we have to run stairs, train out leg and hands endurance. To think about it i must be really crazy i went thru all that for 4 years! omg! haaha.

Talking about school now, time-table is still quite a mess now, sigh and project is seriously piling up. Since school start yesterday, the only time that i really feel happy is during training. Other than that i dont feel happy at all. To think about how silly i am, i'm just like a small girl on first day of school, i was feeling so uneasy i do not know what is gonna happen, so i texted bestie and she cheer me up and motivate me etc! feel so grateful to her. to do some calculation, this will be the second time where i face friendship problem and she is always supportive and standby me no matter what. <3 Thanks bestie! love you max.

Till then.

World Netball Championships, singapore 2011

2011-07-10T19:16:00.000+08:00

Finals today is way too awesome and exciting! Even bring it into 2 extra half quarters! Awesome match between australia and new zealand! now my hand is itchy to play netball alr! oh man oh man!

P/S: the numbers is creepy. jeez.

9th.

2011-07-10T01:39:00.000+08:00

Thanks baby! <3
xoxo. 9th!

You.

2011-07-07T23:00:00.000+08:00

Sometimes when i am outside or looking at my brother wearing corporate wear i will think and imagine wk wearing it. but of course i can't picture not because he don't suit wearing corporate wear is because i'm too used to his sporty look. You know once you see a sports person too much all you can think is that whatever apparel he/she wear will be sporty hahah! & i am pretty much awaiting for this day to come where i can buy him a cuff link to match his shirt! I think buying cuff links for your loved ones is a form of happiness! I bought one cufflinks for my brother and everytime he wear that cuff links to work i will feel happy! :D

I think all these outfit is damn nice! heheh. if one day wk start dressing up heheh! omgah hansum much!

On the other hand, i love how great all these outfit look. I hope i was in country that was colder. If you wear like that in sg, people will say you crazy.

she is so pretty! i love her hair too!

Super love all the outer wear! heheh! i hope i can go to colder country! :(

POL-ITE 2010

2011-07-07T22:41:00.000+08:00

That was the worst match ever, my mom passed away. & i have another 4 more games to go. I missed out 2 matches. After mom funeral i went back and play. My lungs was exhausted from crying, i was sick and i'm weak. But i don't know where the hell i find the energy to play for 3 quarters. I know i was literally pushing myself to my limit, jumping for all the ball and losing my breath.I can still remember that match, we were against NP, and thats the match that i never even care about my body condition and play all out. I was having ankle injury that time, it was bad. That is also the match where my brother come down and give me his support! being siblings for so many years thats the first match he came down and watch me play and be so proud of me because we won. :)

Ah ma! aka mashimaro! she MIA alr. idk where she gone too! :/

This pic is memorable. Our head coach. vivan! i call her gorilla. she scolded is very badly for our last match.

The times where my hair still can slap people!

it was really fun playing netball with them! <3

our supporters! :D

I hope that spirit of mine can bring forward to Pol-ite 2011. I want to feel driven again. :)

oh wells. project is being painful. I don't know why am i feel so stress about why do i get so affected :( grah. hate it. i hate this feeling so badly. :( can some one save me from marketing. You know its actually not very difficult for the theory i just need to be familiar with the structure. But the project part is annoying. i mean like we are not given clear direction on what we should do and all! rawr, #FML.

#emo now.

kthxbai! till then! :D

You.

2011-07-06T00:25:00.000+08:00

I love how we always make fun of each other.
I love how we always say each other look like hamster.
I love how i always cuddle with you.
I love how you always say "i miss you"
I love how sweet you are to me.
I love how you hug me so tight.
I love how you look like when you teared because you are so afraid to lose me. hehe oops
I love how cute you are! omgah adorable much! hehe
I love the fact that you are a basketballer! So hot can! hehehe
I love the way you smile! so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! 'pinch pinch'

When i first know you, you scolded me :( just to get my attention! haha! no one does that to their crush okay!
You look like a korean guy to me!

With loves. xoxo! its going to be our 9th soon! & we have been practicing to be good husband and wife! hehee we went groceries shopping and i cook dinner for you! awwwwww so sweeeeeeet!

#

2011-07-06T00:11:00.000+08:00

Credit: Tumblr.com

FRIENDSHIP.

2011-07-06T00:03:00.000+08:00

How can a person changed drastically? It's so funny that whatever this person say how much he/she hated other people do ended up doing it him/herself. Contradicting much? This is the kind of people which i hate the most and i will do whatever i can to make sure them know their mistake one day. You never been thru pain you will probably wouldn't know.

one day you might lose everything including yourself.

Delayed: USS 28 June.

2011-07-04T23:47:00.000+08:00

I got the pictures for USS from kelly alr! Let the picture do da talking yo!

Caught transformer 3 today! Is awesome to the max! Optimus prime and bumble bee is the dope yo! after movie smallboy and i headed to carrefour to buy ingredients for dinner! We had macaroni soup for dinner and sambal grilled chicken! yummeh! This silly boy fell asleep straightaway after eating! Awesome monday! really quality time spent with my dearest small boy! <3

Support Poppy! :)

2011-07-03T23:34:00.000+08:00

Rainy days is here! Need some moolahs! Here are items that are Brand new or worn once! Please help to support! :D Will be adding more items soon, when i have the time to take pictures! :D

Please support! www.poppyparade.blogspot.com

July.

2011-07-01T21:45:00.000+08:00

Awesomeeeeeee! It's finally july, 8 more months to go and i can get over ITE and i can stop seeing people who doesn't like to see me. June was seriously a dramatic month, i got hooked up with kiddo giving me nonsense craps and ridiculous reasoning. The thing that i can't believe is that i actually been affected by her. Lousy me. Anyway worries and problems is endless they can't be always solved or faced i just got to do my part and go with the flow. & i hope once i let go of this feeling i won't be affected so quickly again, it took me quite sometime to realise this! :O

Anyway, quite a happy week tho! Everyday i will rush to my mailbox and look at my online loots! So this is what i received this week :D I will stop shopping this week, kinda broke now :X

Oasis Colourblock Maxi from theclosetlover.lj
Super gorgeous piece! I doubt i will always have chance to wear this dress but i'm happy to keep one! :D

Low Back Dress in cream from cherninshan.lj
Another preety sweet and sexy dress! I love how sweet looking it is. But i'm afraid that my boyfie might think is too revealing? :/

Nice looking dress and all then what about happy feet? Look at all these pretty shoe wear! I want to have all of them can? :x Notice why there is no heels at all? Because i injured both my ankles during netball and i can hardly wear em for long hours. So wedges will be more comforting than heels for the meanwhile until my ankles is fully recover! :(

By the way, i whiten my teeth just now, super happy now! heheh. Guess what are the ingredient i used? I used baking sodas and salt to whiten my teeth really very cool to use all this home remedies to save $$ :D
I hope i would get sponsor for braces, i really want to have one braces done on my teeth! I'm tired of taking pictures on the left just because my left side of my teeth is straight and my right side of my teeth is crooked! :/ sobs!

Till then! :D

2011-07-01T15:30:00.000+08:00

I want to go out so badly, like shopping with girlfriends and all! :/ Screw school and projects they are the most annoying stuff on earth.

on a sidenote!

I JUST REALISE THAT MY HAIR IS THAT LONG LAST TIME! OMGAH! I MISS MY LONG HAIR NOW!

I miss LOH WEILI! :( WHEN DO YOU WANT TO GO SHOPPING WITH ME!

Trust.

2011-07-01T15:23:00.000+08:00

Sometimes is hard to find someone whom you can relate to, who can clearly understand the things you have been thru that made you who you are today. Friends come and go, sometimes i don't even know who are the real true friends. Things changed in split second, today we are best friends and tmr everything will changed.

Went to universal studios on tues! Had a great day there, Battlestar galactica is the best, the craziest rollercoaster that i've tried so far. We took 2 times and i felt that the blue and red is equally scary! but it was fun and thrilling.

Photos will be up when i upload them to my lappy. Had some problem with my lappy nowadays! jeez!

Popper's Penguins

2011-06-26T23:18:00.000+08:00

25 June 2011

Was actually planning to go for a cycling trip at pulau ubin with my brother and celine but the heavy ruin everything :(. I wont really go to detailed like what we have done for the entire day, but i love the last part of the day. We went out for dinner and i dragged celine to go oakham market with me! the both of us spent about $130 dollars over at OM! hahaha we spent like 1 hour plus there trying on clothes! i got myself 2 tops and 1 shorts while celine got herself dresses and top!

Went home and rest awhile and start baking my Strawberry Jello Cuppy Cheesecake!

Let the pictures do the talking!

Fresh Strawberries

The main ingredient(sorry it wasnt being rotate properly)

Cute Cupcake lining in polka dots!

Digestive biscuit to made the crust!

Melt the butter!

Add gelatin,sugar and cream it together with the cream cheese

Fill the cup with crust!

then the cheese!

nothing left!

ready to put inside the fridge for awhile!

cut the strawberries!

i use cookie cutter to cut out the star shape!

Strawberry jello powder!

& done! your jello cuppy cheesecake is ready to be put insde the fridge for 4 hours! :D

26 June 2011

Caught Mr popper's Penguins with smallboy today! awesome show, love the penguins inside! damn cute and hilarious (: Afterwhich we went back to chinatown and had popian at roof basketball court then to my house and slack! and watch movie again DYLAN DOG! another nice show! hehehe!

Shall let the pictures do the talking again!

he really look like a butch in this photo!

That shall sum up my whole weekend! :D

Have a good week ahead! :D

Moo Bar & Grill

2011-06-25T00:30:00.000+08:00

24 June 2011

Finally i felt that i'm having a proper holiday, rotted at home for the entire day! love it! Had dinner at shenton way with brother and celine! Newly open bar over at that district so we went to try out! The food is so so so awesome! I can't say how much i love it but it taste really good. I'm sorry for the poor picture quality the bar lighting is quite bad and i can't use flash because it snap even more ugly photos! :/

Moo!

I start to like erdinger more and more. it taste so smooth and nice!

My super handsome brother yo!

We were given two choice to cook the calamari, either fried or grilled. I chose grilled and its really enhance my tastebud! Awesome! i love the sauce especially! it bring out the calamari taste even more!

Caesar salad! DAMN NICE I SWEAR! One of the best salad i ever eaten!

Bar grilled chicken wings! nice especially the sauce! we finish

Striploin steak air flown from australia ( this is what its state one the menu) super cool! hahah damn nice! bro love the pepper sauce! i love the mash potato the most! it has a super unique taste!

23 June 2011

Class chalet at NSRCC! super ulu and deserted place! Met up with baby earlier to look for a farewell gift for mr jeremy and we bought a duckie plush toy for him! hahah! initially i wanted to get him something professional but in the end i dropped the idea.

I bought xiao xiong out! hoho!

I love this photo! but sad thing is that its blurry :(

Photos is taken using baby canon SLR camera I THINK! hahaha. I still not familar with the setting tho! next time i use his camera and produce nicer pictures kay? :D

alright till then!

Tongue tied

2011-06-23T00:05:00.000+08:00

I think i might collapse one day just by thinking too much, worried too much, paranoid too much. How many more issues im going to face? I first thought that, when i lost something i will gain something better, but now it seems like i lost something i will lose even more things.

Was having really unbearable sharp pain at my abdominal area, coach says it was gastric influx,prolly because i ate one meal today i guess, and friendly drained out most of my energy. It was bearable when i run, but when i stop running it shrink and starts to create more sharp pain. I would rather run non stop than stop.

When i was showering just now, i cried. I look at my feet, i think about my two ankle injuries, i looked at my knee i saw those scars, I asked myself what i been doing all these years ? am i going too hard against myself? i look at my toes, its all the scar mark that left from all the running blisters. now new scar mark start to surface its from my ankle guard. everytime i took out my ankle guard i will always took a very long time. i tied it so tightly just to prevent the sharp pain from surfacing. idk why am i doing all these to my body and what i receive in the end?

maybe i should stop, im suffering from the same problem as i have in secondary. probably this will end everything.

till then.

Swap 'N' Shop Day TWO!

2011-06-20T22:53:00.000+08:00

Let the photo do the talking. :) We were burning under the sun, so we didn't take as much as we took on first day. Crowd was so so , even worse than first day. But overall it was good! :D

Btw i got a new haircut again, still not satisfied with my hairstyle so i when to chop my hair off again. This time i cut about 3 1/2 inch of hair? very sad, heart nearly broke! but well well! hair will grow back again! and i told my hairdresser that prolly half a year later till i see him to get a new haircut! hahaha. so the photo shows the rough idea of my current hair length and style the only thing that is different is that i didn't cut bangs, i actually want to cut uneven bangs but my forehead is too short i will only look like some china doll girl -.- so i dropped the idea! :(

Last week i was so tired of studying on my study table so i moved my table lamp to my bed and studied there.I know is bad for my eyes but i was so tired, but back bone is literally killing me :(

My new fav VANS shoe in red!

Till then.

SWAP 'N' SHOP : DAY ONE.

2011-06-18T23:35:00.000+08:00

Biz was good today! & awesome day spent with CYM! What make it better is able to see my lil sis at the flea! I was seriously jumping around when she called me, cause at first i couldn't recognise her when she first saw me! so she gave me a weird stare. Afterwhich she called me and say she saw me then i realise that the girl who gave me a weird stare was actually my lil sis! omgah! i was why you are so different now! you grown so much i can't even recognise her! & she is super good and sweet! she bought rings and necklace from me, i even offer giving her discount but she don't want! omgah such a sweet girl! <3

My brother and celine came to give some support as well! They even helped us to look after the booth while me and CYM just goes down the street to shop! heheh! happy girl!

more photos!!

Accessories! selling cheapcheap tmr! :D

HUAT AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhh!

CYM SHAGGED FACE!

Flora Dress, with elastic band at the waist! Selling @ $15! BRAND NEW

Flora Bucket Bag! Condition: pretty good! Selling at $15!!

Poppy Pink Dress BRAND NEW! Selling @ $24

Tribal Tank @ $10 BRAND NEW!

Hopefully tmr we can earn even more! HUAT AH!

HOLIDAY!!!

2011-06-17T17:31:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i wonder, when we die where do we go?

On a happier mode, its HOLIDAY ALR! :D

THIS SATURDAY SWAP 'N' SHOP FLEA

2011-06-16T21:17:00.000+08:00

This saturday! Swap 'N' Shop flea @ chinatown! Do come down and support! :D Yuenmun and i is selling our preloved items and some exclusive item from BKK and Hongkong! so please do come by and support! It will be located at food street! Our booth number is FS51! Is nearer to south bridge road! So please do drop by and say hi! :D

Do come by and take a look! Most items is going at $15 and below! :D

Is weekend spending spree! Don't hesitate! ^^

Spending Spree.

2011-06-16T12:14:00.000+08:00

Spending spree yesterday with smallboy!! Awesome to the max, went to oakham market to get my minty maxi then we headed to town to get our VANS shoes! went to CK Tangs but dont have my size so we went to far east to shop then headed to orchard central to get my shoe! yay!! afterwhich we went to daiso to shop for alot of chapanglang stuff! :D:D Love yesterday ttm!

Went back to bishan to celebrate elaine ong brithday! Had dinner at manhatten fish market and gave her a little surprise! Had ice cream after that at marble slab and chit chat for very long! :D awesomeeeeeeee!

shall let pictures do the talking.
bye! :D xoxo

CAs Is overrrrrrrrrrrr!

2011-06-15T10:53:00.000+08:00

My last paper end yesterday! happy girl now! i smell that slight freedom alr! I got to study hard!!!!

Meeting smallboy later! we are going to shopping again! yay! Tonight Manhattan fish market with my dearest lovely girls! :D

seeya!

1111th post.

2011-06-11T23:10:00.000+08:00

Prepared a sweetheart lunchbox for baby today! Fry fried rice with hotdog,failed sunny side up,2 cheese tofu and lastly baby favourite cabbage! :D We headed to keppel bay and had our mini picnic there! I also brought along sliced watermelon to eat after our meal! hehehe.

Went to vivo and shop. smallyboy bought a apparel today! hoho! he said that eversince he know me he got hooked to shopping already! oops! but good what then we can go shopping together! heheh!

Smallboy gave me a surprise today! he gave me this!

i name him xiao xiong! :D

till then.

8th love!

2011-06-10T00:27:00.000+08:00

Happy 8th monthsary snoozer! I love you more and more each day! ♥

Snoozer

2011-06-09T23:56:00.000+08:00

So i slept at 5am last night helping smallboy to revise his biz environment paper. The awesome thing is that i dont have to go school today! thank god! finally a day break! :D hehs. By the way, my 2 australia trip is gone! :/ Sigh sigh sigh! i want to visit australia so badly! is a place that i would want to go in asia. jeez. nvm there is always next time.

So finally tender brief draft is done and submitted, now i have to focus on public relation paper. All the media strategy keep haunting me away these few days! jeez tough school life!

I went out and study today, headed to ann siang hill as i dont feel like going anywhere far. Went to oakam market and another store beside it and bought a few things! hehe happy girl nowwwwww!

Went around the hill and take pictures! here is some of the pix that i like! :D

till then, xoxo.

Gonna hold you for the rest of my life.

2011-06-04T23:04:00.000+08:00

Darren said this on fb - Girls are a lot like parking spaces, all the good ones are usually taken. I comment on it and said, Their coupon will expired!

But for me and smallboy its gonna be a different thing! i gonna make sure i always renew the coupon! I want my parking space to be always available to him only! heheh! <3!

So i went out and study for 7 hardcore hours! productivity is quite on and off, cant seems to concentrate for the entire 7 hours, is like every 30mins i will feel sleepy and my wrist will start to lose strength to write! booo! Im gonna mug later hopefully a good 2 hours before i sleep and wake up early tmr to go liang court and mug again! :D:D hope is super productive tmr! Monday is POM paper already and i'm a little afraid that i might not do well for it! :/

Alright till then! :D

wordy

2011-06-02T18:04:00.000+08:00

The part where you really miss someone very much is the part where they left you spiritually. Sometimes when i fall sick,when i feel demoralize, when i start to feel that everything is losing it meaning, someone will be there to enlighten me, give me direction and support. Thats my mom, to me, she is the toughest women, she can seems unbreakable,strong,nothing seems to affect her etc, but everytime when i see that she secretly hide herself and cry it made me feel that im a useless daughter. Her whole entire 60 years of life, working the hell out of her body,feed us,educate us to become a useful person. Even tho 8 months has passed, i should be getting back on track with my life. but her existence have always be my mental support but now she is gone.

I dreamt about her last night, tho i can't remember the entire dream or what it is about, but i can feel her presence.

For me, i wouldn't envy people who born to live in a great environment and having loads of money being pampered or whatsoever. They never been thru pain before therefore they can never feel the pain. I been thru quite a harsh one since i was born, i never have any family outing with cousins (but my brother have) , i wasn't been pampered with many expensive toys, i only have my bunny and panda but bunny is gone i left with panda. even tho many of my mom customers like to buy me plush toys but i only love my bunny and panda the most! :D I been thru the toughest part of growing up, helping my mother with her shop during holidays, washing plates ,delivering lunchbox to customers etc. This growing up process i learn alot and at the very young age i have a very mature thinking so don't ever doubt me because of my background. i been thru a life that you cannot imagine. i wouldn't say my childhood is the most pathetic one but i would i am one of the girl that never have the luxury to enjoy childhood.

I will never blame mom for giving me this kind of life, but yet i am grateful to her, because i learnt alot from her.

okay lah. im not getting anywhere also!

till then.

POM POM.

2011-06-01T22:34:00.000+08:00

Principles of Marketing, can you be friend with me? I'm interested to know more about you! With loves, redmonster.

I'm so grateful that mr jeremy is going to help us with POM tmr, this module have been giving us headache. Due to the lacking of lesson and revision, everyone know nuts about it. :/ This week gonna be very painful for most of us. & i foresee next week im gonna burn 2 or 3 nights to rush out my tender brief document for draft submission :( Its just the start of year 2, i can already feel the pressure pressing me down on my back :/ *insert zillion of sad face*

Smallboy got his NS letter today and something struck me, how is the days going to be like without his text msges and calls? the 2 weeks that he left me for china and hongkong is already very suffering :/ now is 2 years? sobs! how i wish the govt will change rule and say the guys dont have to serve the country unless need be! HAHA. Just kidding! :O

Okay back to studying naozxc!

sidenote: Very happy to open mailbox these days, all my online loots just come marching in! :D

Happypills.

2011-05-30T23:26:00.000+08:00

♥ havent been taking photo with you for awhile! *hint!!* kiss your nose! hehehe!